luck

the ones looking for luck are the ones who don't understand it.

in sumer 2013, i'll start my education as a graphic designer. 

im so lucky. 

chears <3

forest

hot night coming, keep the car running

lavender fingers swallow my pollen

gold i swam into your spell 

on the night you led me under your sin

you had me howling

you had me howling

golden siren

under exposing

come lay your weakness down

on the floor in the backseat.

chears

wallflower

wallflower.

you see things.

you keep quiet about them.

and you understand.

the perks of being a wallflower. 

♡

unicorn

 good god i'm so happy.

not just happy like "well, today was a pretty good day."

every little part of my body is happy.

and i haven't been sad or angry for months.

im not even tired anymore.

theres the interesting point: i don't know why.

there is no reason i'm in such a good mood all the time 

and i don't even dare to ask myself this question.

i just wanted to share the fact that its possible to be absolutely fulfilled

without any special reason.

just don't forget about the little, nevertheless awesome things in your life.

just smile. (:

"and all and everything is beautiful

yes we are beautiful

so beautiful

beauiful"

Eric Crusher ft. Chloe - Unicorn

chears

holidays

and then quietly, without you ever noticing, someday is today.

hellogoodbye everybody

a few weeks ago, my friends and me went on holiday. 

we only spent four days there, which is insufficient when you have all you love next to you.

but all in all these days were great, and i also took a few acceptable photos of the city.

 im totally in love with pictures of smoking people, so i just took a photo of myself smoking. (very poetically put haha )

this one's my favorite photo. maybe it's because i associate with the great experiences i made there. if you didnt see it by yourself, this is a subway. but its not just a normal subway, some ingenious artist had the idea to cover it all over with newspapers. even the bench on the left was completely covered with newspapers.

one of my friend already knew this subway and told me before, but i couldn't imagine it was this magical. people were coming, alone or in groups, and just started reading parts of the papers. (there are so many in so many different languages) and we all were fascinated by the abundance of different information at one, not even large subway.

THANK YOU UNKNOWN ARTIST, I LOVE YOU

chears

suicide

shortcut information about the pictures above: the one on the top is a wonderful photography i edited with photoshop, i just love the light and the colors in the pictures.

the second one is just a photo of mine, originally made for a new look on lookbook.

hellogoodbye everybody. 

it took me much time to make this new post, simply because i didnt found the time and mainly because i in fact didn't find the right sentences to write about this chapter.

besides that, my boyfriend takes away all my free minutes i got between friends, art and the goddamn books im actually reading. well, its a scrap of comfort that he also loves art and everything that has something to do with it. we're just kinda..creative all day :-)

a few days ago, i read some posts in the internet about people in deep depressions, with the result that they killed themselves. 

it is horrible to read and at least see that there are people feeling so alone and stranded and absolutely nobody doesn't even realize it?

 come on. what is wrong with us people simply closing our eyes and hope that nobody saw we're not helping? why are human like... themselves and nobody else matters?

so.. you have no time for negative bullshit. exactly.

i saw people writing stuff like they are simply alive because they are afraid of the pain they could feel while dying. people saying stuff like hating all the feelings they have, hating their lives and the thing i read the most was that they were hating themselves. i dont understand why.

these people believe the words we are saying. words like "you're ugly" or "you're nothing" hurt these people. they think about you, your words, and the longer they do, the more they believe in them. 

all the things these people love, all the skills they have, what they look like, everything starts to decline and they stop believing in anything. the sense of living falls away and from one day to another they are empty shells carrying two tons of sadness on their shoulders. and nobody is there to help.

guys, i dont really know if you understand what i want to tell you with the facts i just wrote, but please... please dont let them stand alone. just dont.

and if you are someone carrying sadness, just dont give up. go and get help. it really gets better.

chears

take over control

here we go again (;

the following photo is the most actual of mine. just saying, got these clothes from ASOS, a online shop where i often order stuff. (at least as often as my purse says YES, YOU CAN!)

the ultimate OHMYGOD collection of men, it's OF COURSE totally incomplete.

im often visiting tumblr and other really awesome bloggers here at blogspot. i've never thought that there are so many inspiring things in the world. at least there are too many creative people which arent seen and known by world. i want to say thank you to all the artists doing their work absolutely perfect.

the new party songs of my friends 'n me. 

chears guys

munich&love

in my last post, i told you about munich, and how shitty my photos got. they still are, but i decided 

 to post a few.

this one is about a little boy playing with his motocycle. it felt awesome to watch him playing, it seemed like he was in his own little world, where all the adventures he imagined were true and unique.

i also want to post a few photos amusing or inspiring me. i'm recently working a lot with photoshop, and i take all my ideas out of those photos.

 

until we bleed

just found an awesome remix of lykke li's "until we bleed". i've been listening to this song for years, the original version made together with kleerup, but i like this one too. This one is that kind of song to that never gets annoying. i can listen to it again and again, and i dont even notice the same songs been playing for two hours or something.

im recently listening to an awesome band called "frittenbude", i just bought their new album a few days ago. i'm so totally in love. there's a song called "die amsel", so if you're really interested in them, you should listen to this song with the awesome lyrics.

unfortunately there's only a shortcut live version found in youtube, that's also a reason why i bought the deluxe edition of the actual album called "delfinarium". it's totally worth its price ;-)

i just started a new school called "gestalterischer vorkurs", where you paint and get taught about history of art and so on. i gotta say i've never been happier before. my class is as awesome as the school by itself and everyday i'm getting up i'm so fucking glad for the day and it's surprises holding for me.

the relationship of my best friend J and me is also getting better and better. lately we spoke about affinity, and this word in relationship to our friendship felt so right. i really think he's the most precious friend of mine.

all in all i can say my life couldn't get better, i'm the happiest girl alive id say :)

nothing could ever change this. 

i also enjoy my independence as well as i can. i love traveling alone, i've just been to munich for a few days. it was so great! shopped my whole money away and also saw awesome sights like the allianz arena.

it's too bad that the days there were so totally hot and i felt sick anyway, so i didn't take ANY good photo. maybe i'll post a few next time, even they're shitty.

i'd say i stop here, even i could tell you a hundred more stories of my holidays, its getting late and my shower is waiting for me.

girls and boys, do whatever makes you happy, but do it.

chears